Would you believe that I haven't seen my eldest sister Marcy in 15 years? 15 friggin' years!!! Not that I'm incredibly enthusiastic about seeing her, she's still the same old ate Marcy to me. But still, she's my sis, and 15 years is a loooooong time. I have yet to see my nephew David and nieces Chelsea and Jessica (see pic). Some people probably think my family is screwed up or something. Not screwed up, just complicated. You see, half of my family is based in the U.S, and the other half is in Thailand. And I'm the long lost son/brother/nephew/uncle stuck here in the Philippines. I've always missed my family, but it's a situation I have learned to live with. But now that my Lola (who has been my family for the past 15 years) has passed away, I feel more alone than ever. I thank my girlfriend Irish for being there to keep me sane. She's been wonderful, my source of strength in times of weakness. But family is family. And it's been a long while since I've felt like I belong in one. Sometimes I start thinking I've become this cold, heartless person. Able to withstand life without the security and warmth a family provides.
Still, I have a lot to be thankful for. And maybe someday, in the near future, I will get to celebrate the holidays with my siblings again. Like a normal family should.
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hi kuya... this is shaz. i miss you lots! i sent you a couple messages in friendster, but you haven't replied. :( anyway, i just want to say that i understand how you feel... having your own life and independence is great, but it's nice to have family there as well. for now, matt's the one i lean on during hard times... but we can never forget that no matter what, family will always be there. i love you! would be great to hear from you sometime... you can find me on myspace:
www.myspace.com/matt_shaz
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